Update...

Well I went to the Dr. today and she told me I was dilated to a 3. I was hoping and praying for a 1 and I am a 3. You would think this would be super exciting but it FREAKED me out. I got in the car, called Josh, and started crying.

"I cant do this, I cant birth a baby."

I know I can be a 3 for another month but for me it made it more real and freaked me out.

Josh is an amazing husband and daddy and just helped me focus on the fact that we would be meeting our son and not so much on the birthing part.

Part 2 of the crying was bc the Dr totally freaked me out about the water birth. My Dr was out of town so I saw someone in his practice and apparently she is not for the water birth bc she said horrible things and it is really making me question if this is what I want to do. SO our birthing plan may change. We will see.

I go back to the Dr (my Dr) on Tuesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!