I am feeling a little defeated by the fact that I am not patient, not precise and not diligent... oh and horrible at research....

I want to be educated and I want to be good at things but do to the above listed thing I AM NOT.

Sewing- love it want to be better at it but I am cheap and not patient and so I dont do it right

Cake decorating- same

organic living... SO SO SO intimidated. I really feel called to make this change but I just dont have the knowledge or the patients , diligence to become educated.

RRRR very frustrated with myself today. Lord- Please change me and give me this gift.