WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???

My friend had a baby the other day (congrats Stephanie) and it made me think back to Copeland's sweet birth. For some horrible reason it made me long to do it again. Now if you dont know me that might sound weird but seeing that I NEVER wanted to get pregnant it is strange that I would want to do it again. After talking about it with Josh I dont want to get pregnant again as much as I want to give birth again. It is just so amazing and now I know so much more and would do things different. Not b/c Copeland's was bad but I would try the water birth again and I would for sure try to not get a epi. I would also tape it. I know that sound weird and gross but now (only 3 month later) I cant remember the first words said after he came out. Did someone say "its a boy" or "He is here" I cant remember. I just remember feeling so much at the moment that I could not take a lot of it in. I will probably never birth again but it is a blessing that I am glad the Lord gave me, even if I said I did not want it.

Happy 3 months Copeland... you are such a blessing and light up your mommy and daddy's world. Nothing can top your sweet smile. We love to listen to you talk and you have a lot to say. You love to sleep with mommy and daddy which is a habit we have to break (even if mommy does not want to) Some how you got HUGE over night. My sweet lean boy is filling out. Thank you for the joy you bring us.